Tears poured down my cheeks, making my face get all red and blotchy. I felt like my heart was being squeezed inside of my chest, and the tears continued to flow. My husband looked over at me and laughed. Laughed?! Yes, because the reason I was crying is because of a movie preview. A movie PREVIEW.
This is my life. I weep during commercials and movie previews. Tears escape almost every Sunday during worship. And it takes everything I have inside of me to stay strong and not break down when I witness someone broken and hurting.
Surprisingly, this is an improvement compared to how I use to be. I use to be paralyzed by fear, panic attacks, severe depression and anxiety. Although I’m still a very emotional person and cry at the drop of a pin, I have learned through my journey with Christ that emotions aren’t meant to control me, but compel me.
When I experience emotion, it compels me to take a step back from the situation and to look to God for guidance. When I begin to get angry or upset with my spouse, it causes me to stop and to pray and reflect on my reactions. When I am impatient and snap at my child, it causes me to look at my attitude of things. When I am starting to become stressed and worried, it makes me pause to remember He is in control. And when I am so joyful that my heart could explode with happiness, it helps me to pause and thank Him for what He is doing.
“Don’t copy the behavior and customs of this world, but let God transform you into a new person by changing the way you think. Then you will learn to know God’s will for you, which is good and pleasing and perfect.” Romans 12:2.
Through the entire month of April, I will be writing about emotions. I will be taking some of the emotions we experience regularly and pull apart what God has to say about them and what He designed them for. If you are an emotional person, or have a hard time reacting properly while emotional like I do, then I believe this next month will help both of us. Together, we can overcome the control our emotions have over us and start handling emotions the way God intended. I am looking forward to this month’s theme: Evolving Emotionally.
Prayer: Father God, thank you for emotions as they are a beautiful gift. Please help me to continue to grow in You and not allow my emotions to control me. Continue to transform me into the person You designed me to be. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.
Discussion: Romans 12:2 talks about letting God transforming us into a new person, think about a time that God used an emotion to help transform you. If you feel lead, please share in the comments below.